I've dealt with indirect rejection my entire life, mainly from my peers who never seemed to include me. I switched into a different high school for my sophomore year in hopes I would find the lifelong friends I had never been able to keep. Unfortunately, that wasn't the case. Out of the 100 "sisters" and "brothers" that I graduated high school with, there is 1 person who I speak to regularly, and that's because we go to college together. I may run into the occasional peer when at home, but it's nothing more than a quick hello and goodbye. This rejection was in-direct for sure but what I'm going through now is much more forward.
Flash forward to today, my sophomore year of college. I was so excited to start the new year and I had two things in mind that were going to make this year better than the rest: a boy and new friends. I won't get into all the details of what happened with either of the situations, but clearly they didn't end how I wanted them to. I can't help but take it personally despite being told by both parties that it was nothing I did wrong, but if that was true, why didn't they want to be with me? What sucks even more is that both parties are completely un-avoidable (thanks Emerson College for being so small) so I see them now more than I did when I did want to see them (if that makes any sense).
Here's what I've been doing to try to get over this rejection:
- Stop Social Media Stalking: It's inevitable that you'll see photos, statuses, tweets, etc so see how many hours you can go without mindlessly scrolling.
- Talk it Out: Express yourself. I still don't have closure in either situation but am working towards speaking about it to them.
- Treat Yourself: I'm sure you're feeling down so treat yourself to something nice, big or small, you deserve it.
- Count Your Blessings: Think of all the good things you have going for you and work on improving them even more.
- Everything Happens For A Reason: Remember this. No matter what.
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